Surrender Diaries: Week 7

Surrender Diaries: Week 7

I have completed the Samma Karuna 200 Hour Yoga Teacher Training. The graduation party was last night. I wore by t-shirt of a blue butterfly with a white background that my Mum gave to me, which is a blue butterfly on a white background. The symbol of transformation is a good one for wearing at this graduation.

This was week four of the training, and I found that I was more in surrender in most of the classes than I have been during the rest of the weeks. Perhaps because my body mind was becoming used to the gruelling spiritual routine of up at 5;30 for some work or youtube listening before meditation at 7:15, followed by yoga, followed by non stop classes throughout the day until finish at 7pm when it is already dark here in the tropics. READ MORE

Surrender Diaries: Week 6

Surrender Diaries: Week 6

This week I have been more present than last. I am thinking it is because I am more surrendered in general to the rhythm of being in this military regime of classes starting at 7:15am and ending at 7pm each night.

Monday was the community dinner here at Samma Karuna. I brought my guitar and after dinner a spontaneous jam session emerged, with an English / Polish guy and an Isreali guy taking turns on my guitar as we all sang songs together. An amazing positive energy arises when people allow themselves to fully express. It is like their love comes straight out of them in the form of song and everyone is automatically united and comes into the oneness consciousness. I felt so much love and connection and was totally surrendered in this moment. A strong feeling of relaxation of the ego mind and of control. READ MORE

Follow Your Joy to Align with Your True Self

Follow Your Joy to Align with Your True Self

How many moments of joy did you experience?

What if living a fulfilling and enriching and wondrous life was much easier than you think?

What if, actually, it is the thoughts themselves – the overthinking, that was what was getting in the way of your following your joy?

I have been tracking my Surrender levels over the past five weeks or so, with the intention of discovering more about when I am in the flow of life and when I am out of it – stuck in the eddies of the stream so to speak. Snagged on a stick.

And the thing I have noticed, that whenever there is too much energy in my mind, and I am thinking too much, usually I am stuck on a stick. This is when I can easily get involved with the constant commentary of the mind and then lose my presence. READ MORE

Surrender Update: Week 5

Surrender Update: Week 5

So, this week has been interesting.

Sunday I spent mostly in my favourite cafe here, the Art Cafe, where I did some work for a yoga retreat client and read a book on Energy Healing by Silvia Haartman. I was very happy because 1. It was the day off and 2. I was in a beautiful place doing things I love to do.

Then Monday during the training, my mind was mostly quiet, and it was OK with being in the classes. The commentary was not too loud. By about Wednesday though, it was screaming at me in some of the asana classes.

Please. get me outta here. it was saying. ‘I don’t want any more of this stupid asana bullshit. Enough already. Let’s go back to that cafe where it’s beautiful and quiet and eat some of that yummy banana cake.’ READ MORE

Surrender Diaries: Week 4

Surrender Diaries: Week 4

So, happy Friday to everyone who is reading this. And if it’s not Friday, then pretend it is :).

Every Friday I am doing a checkin on my Surrender state. It is like a reading that I am doing on how surrendered to the flow of life I am. The idea is that if I am able to document my surrender states, then I may be able to use this knowledge to come more and more into a relationship of surrender with life. Paradoxically though, surrender comes about not through the use of the mind, but through checking into our intuition and following its guidance, rather than the constant thoughts of the mind.

The mind is constantly analysing, and judging, and making plans. None of which is ‘bad’ per se, but its not the best master. Rather, the mind is a good servant. If we are in front of a situation that needs weighing up and analysing (or a problem, like a maths equation) then the mind is a useful tool. READ MORE

Surrender Diaries: Week 3

Surrender Diaries: Week 3

So, I arrived in Koh Phagnan Wednesday night after leaving Melbourne at 1am Wednesday morning and arriving in Kuala Lumpur at 6:30. At 11:30, after sending out my email about the Global Yogi Community, I got a flight to Surat Thani, on the Thai peninsula and the jump off point for the islands of Koh Phagnan, Koh Samui and Koh Tao. 

I have had a feeling for a long time that I needed to come back and visit Koh Phagnan for some time now. And I finally surrendered to this feeling, and booked my ticket and well, here I am.

As soon as I got onto the big slow boat here from the Surat Thani pier, I felt I was on my way home. This island feels like home to me. As as the boat motored gently across the waters I was slowly lulled to sleep by the rocking motion over the waves. Surrounded by backpackers and Thai people, I remembered the last time that I had been here, back in 2013, a few months after I had been here with my amour fou, the lover I thought was the man-of-my-dreams. The one who I waved goodbye to from the boat when I was heading off to Bali after two very short weeks with him, uncertain of our future but with the feeling that had to continue on my journey to go to the Bali Spirit Festival. READ MORE

The Surrender Diaries: Week 2

The Surrender Diaries: Week 2

So, here we are in Week 2 of my Surrender Experiment.

Inspired by the book, The Surrender Experiment, I am interested in living a more surrendered life, which is one where I am flowing downstream with the current of where life wants to take me, rather than upstream in an energy of struggle.

Over the years I have been very inspired by Havi Brooks, who posts a weekly Checkin which she calls a Friday Chicken.

Confession: Sometimes I wanna even be Havi Brooks…. just for a minute, until I realise that I am also pretty cool even though I write like me and not like her. 🙂

Aaaaahh, breath out for (warning: tooting of own horn, which is essentially, self-love): I am an intelligent and interesting writer too. But this doesn’t mean I cannot be inspired by Havi. And I am inspired for these Surrender Updates to have a structure so that you too, can join me in the surrender practice and start documenting your own surrender states in the comments below this post. YAY and breath out for ‘we are in this life thing together so let’s connect and share’. READ MORE

The Surrender Diaries: Week 1

After reading the Surrender Experiment, which I reviewed here, I have decided to set up my own Surrender Experiment, where I will be tracking my surrender level, so to speak, each week. I am interested in using writing to find out how surrendered to life I am, to discover where I am stuck in an… READ MORE